Dear, if someday you'll find me in a crowded place, and i don't take a glimpse when you call or when you look at me, don't worry. It's just because i didn't hear your call, or i didn't see your presence at there. Nor i forget you from long ago.
And if we meet in the other day where you and i had through out all bad and good things lonely, it doesn't mean my level increases without you and i'll be one of the lonely rangers. No. I still use my pride humbly, even though i know that im passive, my smile is rare, and im not a talkative person who can always laugh in small talk. Can you imagine how hard i live out there?
Sorry if i never gave you a hug like other people do when happiness flies upon them. Im not a type of person who can make warm atmosphere, who can hear your loaded head from your daily story in the way you want me to look into your eyes, give you some advices, or give you feedback with any nice responds that you've always hoped.
Deep inside of my heart and my soul, i always respect to everyone around me with my big respect. But i just show you a little bit of it. So, please figure this out, i make it right to you about my attention that respectfully, i never tried to ignore because i knew how does it feel. But still, you judge me.
If you dont like who i'am, or my attitude, hate me like you want to do. And i will learn how to forgive you and forgive who i used to be.
It's okay to get far from me, i will think you just need space then. It doesn't matter how bad you've been thinking of me. Indeed, my flaws are more than yours. But it can not be okay if you talk about me behind my back. Because i was hurting when i built my personality like you want me to be.
I found one or two life lessons here: my personality is not always relatable with someone, when i tried to be what you like, you're surrounding me. And i was too hard on myself to play in this part. Now, i'm just letting go of something that i have to.
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